Saturday, April 28, 2012

# BH # Experience

Attention Deficit Disorder



It was pitch dark and we were passing through the woods in a car. We were supposed to reach the destination an hour earlier, the camera's craving for a hunt (read shoot) at many places led to many pit-stops. Once we entered the forest, a guard warned us against stopping the car anywhere. I held onto BH's hand, rested my head over his shoulder and closed my eyes. Then, I heard these conversations.

Girl: Stop for second! Look at the lonely tree in the middle of the lake and the moon's reflection in it!!

BH lifted my head with his hand and said,

"What a catch in the night girl. It will be a picture for life and please don't get down."

That girl had one kick-ass camera. She quickly changed some settings clicked a few snaps in various combinations of angles and modes. Then, she gestured the driver that we can leave. She flaunted what she had snapped. The only person who seemed to be interested was BH.

Next morning, all of us went for a walk through the wood. I took my normal point-and-shoot camera with me. As we tread the rough terrain, we spotted many birds on the way. It was a visual treat. But, when I turned to show BH a bird we had not spotted before, I did not find him. I turned back. He was showing something to the girl with a kick-ass camera. I went there to see what I had missed sighting. The valley and trees looked beautiful with a orange hued sky in the background. I captured that too.
BH turned to the girl and said,

BH: Show me the picture you have taken.
Girl: See this, See this and this. Which is the best?
BH: All are good. You should take photography seriously. You are made for that.
Girl: He.. He.. You are flattering me.

The voice inside me cried "I have taken a snap too! And I am standing few inches away from you"

Was I jealous? Or was I lacking attention? I pondered. There is an intrusion in that territory of attention was the output. Although I knew, that both of them were intent on photography, I was hurt. I went into my shell. I slid the camera into its pouch and walked swiftly away from them. Alone.

BH, who notices the slightest of my change in expressions, did not comprehend this. Maybe, he did not expect. Then, I told myself not to expect a minute of atttention from him on this trip. I kept myself aloof from the happenings. Strangely, BH did not notice till that evening. I stood near a vast expanse of dry land, gaping at infinity. I had a warm hand on my shoulder and deep low voice said.

BH: What are you doing here?
Me: Nothing. I was just thinking to tell you that this spot could offer a picture during the sunset. Go quickly and bring your camera-woman.
BH: What? Are you jealous my lady? *Laughs uncontrollably*
Me: *Teary eyed* Did you see one snap I took during this trip?
BH: Oye! Are you crying? Dear.. She has a better camera than us. I was.. Leave it. Now stop crying and show me the snaps.
Me: I won't.
BH: You are a kid. Come-on. Grow-up.

After pampering, cuddling, hugging and chocolate-ing I felt better. I lacked attention. God! Such difficult times of my life :-D 

I cannot term this feeling as positive or negative. It really depends on how you deal with this feeling. I would not call term this as jealousy or insecurity, it is the behavior due to lack of attention. If the expectations and disappointments are not sorted as soon as possible, such feelings wont take long to grow into negative emotions.
So, I suffered from "Attention Deficit Disorder- Initial stage"


PS: I was not angry. I was just hungry for attention.

56 comments:

  1. Sooo cute..!! And now I realize that many at times I too suffered from ADD and it was not jealousy!!

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  2. Sahana, all along the post I couldn't stop smiling. Because I have been through these emotions so many times! I think its positive if done in a limit and doesn't turn into over possessiveness.

    and I don't believe those women, who claim to never feel such emotions and then declare they are in a secure relationship.. bah!

    All of girls, do need our dose of special attention :-)

    Nice written :-)

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    1. *Hugs* Call it buff when they say so.
      We llllove attention and we are born for that.

      :) Thanks a lot for this wonderful comment.

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  3. That is very irritating for us guys...

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    1. I understand. But boss, some are manufacturing defects. You will have to live with them. :D

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  4. LOL :) A very cute post and so very true for us ladies!

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  5. And hey, if you don't mind my asking - which template do you use and how did you enable the drop downs in the menu bar above?

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    1. Check out the page source info. You will get an idea.

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  6. A very natural trait-the craving for attention and appreciation.That was a minor lapse by BH though not intentional in not praising your snaps then and there.But then you know him better.
    A nice post with which everyone can relate

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    1. LOL.. Such are the times we get to know ourselves. We never know the existence of such feelings.
      Thanks a lot for those nice words Sir.. :)

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  7. Aww.. You are kid. :) Share the clicks as well. :D

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  8. Lovely ..straight account of what happened, and expressed your feelings really well. Rarely do blog posts evoke such a honest connect. Loved it.

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  9. :) hmm well you did get the attention then .. os its cured i hope :)

    Bikram's

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    1. I snatched the attention.. :P Thanks a lot for the comment Bikramjit..

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  10. Oh Sahana.. so cute that was :). Glad that all's well that end's well!
    Reminded me of the early days of my courtship/marriage.. God I feel so old to even say that !!

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    1. What a feeling it must be when the memories just rush-in.. :) Even yesterday seems to be a long time.. It is just perception no?

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  11. hahaha...I would have reacted similarly..but the hubby is so predictable, I wish sometimes there are such moments..of course, the object of undue attention need not always be another girl ;-)

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    1. I know. But when it is a girl it fuels the feeling :D
      Such moments makes you laugh later.. For that reason I do not regret any second of my life.. :)

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  12. Ahhhhhhhhhh you are back :) awesome good to see you post again :D was waiting for so long :D

    Hey I fully understand and totally with you ;) this happens to me with my best friends lol :D I am very possessive about my friends :D so my protest will be very similar to what urs was :D happens to everyone :D at least for me i am always hungry for attention love and care ;)

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    1. Ahha! I have read that in your posts Ramya. We can live without food.. not without love, care and attention. :D :D

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  13. attention from bh wasnt enough. this post now to get attention from the entire world :-P

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    1. That was an intelligent comment. Good mind reader you!! :P

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  14. Good to see a post from you after a long time! I also have faced very much similar situations. Believe me you wouldn't have felt so sad if it were a camera-man instead of a camera-woman. This is a typical female emotion in the presence of another female. There is no meaning in suppressing such feelings (ofcourse we should learn to take it as natural and ignore and make sure that it will not spoil the moments further). Also, generally most of the times guys will like to be sweet with the other women, may not be genuinely interested in what they are showing/saying (I am not sure about BH of course ;-)). Also remember they cannot be sweet for a long time. Men are one-day players, cannot sustain five-day series ;-)
    But all said and done, it is indeed painful to face such a "lack of attention".

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    1. LOL! I enjoyed your comment! Maybe you are right.. If it was a guy, the fire would have been less. One dayers and five-day series was good :D :D

      Sometimes that happens intentionally, to show how important their attention is to us.. :D
      Anyway.. Let us call them --> Sweet pains.. :D

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  15. A nice one Sahana! This is the usual reaction of a wife when BH engages in conversation with a pretty female!

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    1. Ach.. Correction. Who cares if the female is pretty or not.. She is a female then gone case.. :D

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  16. Getting the attention you need is not a disorder Sahana. Hey lady share those snaps. Let us have a glimpse of the stuff you've captured. :)

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    1. LOL! It may become one if not heeded :D There is a disorder by that name.. :)
      Yes Ashwini. I will share those snaps.. :)

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  17. the guard telling not to stop anywhere ! look like something out from an horror movie..perhaps Wrong Turn or sort...

    anyhow 4 words that i should remember are:

    Pampering, Cuddling, Hugging and Chocolate-ing... :P

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    1. LOL LOL LOL! You got hold of the most important lesson.. Smart huh?
      That was a reserved forest area. A jungle resort inside the jungle. So, the guard warned us.

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  18. I can so very well identify with this! I have this attention deficit disorder and more often. I become very sad if I m not getting attention for too long but I guess we women look for only one thing for all that we do for others and that is "attention". If we have that then all is well, hai na?

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    1. If we have all the attention, we find things are normal, only when it goes missing we realize some empty spaces. That is when we react.. :D
      So happy that you could relate :)

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  19. Very well written Sahana.. I would like to point out(in fact ask) few things here.
    Do 'every girl' on this earth need such attention every time, every step of life..!!! [may be BH can also give his views :-)].. If yes, why..??

    2ndly, the way you point out 'Kick-ass' camera is funny :D :D ..

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    1. Yes. Every girl needs attention, she accepts that explicitly or not is a different question altogether.
      There may be phases in which the amount of attention required may come down.. But it will never become ZERO!

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  20. A small slice of life narrated so beautifully Sahana... Hope you get out of this Attention Deficit Disorder in the initial stage itself :)
    But we need such things to understand our loved ones and get closer to them like never before :)

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    1. There you got the point right Anand.. We need such things.. It makes lives even more beautiful.. When life hits us it must be carving a statue out of you, So, think positive.

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  21. Hahahah... Loved every bit of it!!! Very nice article

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  22. ha ha ha I know how that feels!!! :D ...At times we know we are being a kid but simply cannot help it!!! :D

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    1. That is how we keep the kid in us alive may be.. What say? ;)

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  23. First of all sorry for commenting late!

    It is good to see the words dancing again at sleight of your fingers.

    It is sometimes tough to categorize some emotions felt but you have succeeded in expressing it beyond boundary of words.

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    1. Neeraj your comment is invaluable. When you comment is not a matter of worry.
      I have just written what happened.. :)

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  24. You reminded me of me. We women are attention-seekers. Just can't take it if our partners ignore us even for a bit.

    Lovely post as ever :)

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    1. As long as we accept and tell them what we expect, the problem should not arise.. :)
      Thank you Namrata for those reassuring words..

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  25. Cats can not live without butter...hehehe...oops no offense :)

    All iz well dat ends well :)

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    1. True True.. There was no offense.. :D
      A mature mind ends well..

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  26. :D else they will hae to face dire situations.. :D

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  27. Sahana,

    I read this sometime ago but didnt find time to mention that..this is so lovely to go through...hehe

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  28. So I know now .. that I am not the only one to face this thing :)
    I don't feel it's wrong to have this feeling..I must say u r BH is lucky to have you :D

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